God, I hope you don't find me

I hope you never ask to see how I'm doing
What changed in my life after you

When I left

You became consistent

I chuckle

At how I wasted time and I'm the only one to blame

All the moments that I waited at your door as you slid in and out of her

The missed calls as your tongue slithered between her tonsils

Oh 
I remember how sweet you were

Like the sugar I swiped on my lips before they met yours

How bad did I want you?

More than myself

That was enough

For me to wait on you
 Waiting for sweet nothings
I felt like you were worth the wait
Waiting on nothing but apologies

As I beckoned for you

Asking for you to have a moment with me

To come back once more

Oh 
how sweet those lies were

I believed you

God knows I did, but he did leave me with you