To find you, I would...

 All at once

I was pulled away from the noise of the world

To find what I had lost so long ago

I could almost rejoice, it's so sweet

A peace I once ran from

Throwing myself to every whim

I remember how that felt

Who that was

So far from where I am

still in my veins

I ran from this bliss

I almost lost all my breath as I busied myself with the soul-crushing abandonment

I protect her like a newborn child

Now, she is all me as I am all hers

Solely my own

I am sorry for the times I left you

To place someone, something, anything above you

A complete soul

An evolving experience

A life

Left behind for fractured fulfilment

May I never transgress, not again

May I hold you dear

As I have for so many others who didn't deserve it

For the innocuous things that are meaningless without my grasp

I give my sincerest apologies

To you

I hold you closer

 I remember how cold it was without you

   Lonely, in even better company

A friend to eternity

I would do it again, just for you

To find your bliss again

To hear your laughter

To see your smile

After all the rain

You truly are the emblem of eternal light I couldn't have imagined finding

Through the rubble, I approach a precious piece of that sovereignty

Supple, delicate

Just for me