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I stopped writing because I am not sad anymore

I find it to be simpler to show you the depths that I go where light doesn’t seem to follow

But when I am happier

I may find that one could get lost in the light

For my rays not resonate with your beams

And that tension in itself is a form a resistance

So I clutch my light closer to me than ever before

Because I remember the hell it was when I went without

I am my own savior and this love within is my saving grace

But the love I behold may grip your hatred inadvertently

I never want to lose myself again

I never want to save anyone before myself again

Because when I was alone

Really alone

The ones that I once held so dear reveled in my demise

Illusions and all

With all their mistakes

With all the flaws in their ways

Empathy still oozed from the remnants of life force that I had

And for that, I will never lose the light for you

It is on my terms, forevermore

This is what my love feels like

I see why you never wanted to let me go

And be happy