God knows I tried

Oh, God knows I’ve loved you a time or two. A life or two. I remember a pain like this. It strikes you like hellfire on your best day. Searing me as my soul reaches its crescendo. Holding nothing, I’m left with the warring pain.

Of the losses before.

This one is gonna sting. I’ve loved you a time or two.

Aches like this remind me why it will always end with you. My love moved through spaces darkness never saw. The antithesis of my hopes and dreams. All covered with a silicon smile. Woeful, I pick it all up. I loved you to remember what slowly decaying feels like. An everlasting dance with romance that ends in a turbulent fire. I just wish it didn’t feel so good. I just wish…

I could get a grip on myself.

An abyss I found myself swimming in.

I plunged here with you and I’m left to pick up the pieces. I wish you were here. I wish I was my own savior. I just need time…
I am the light I need in a space like this. I am empty but not broken.